on love, II

"yes, sure. (laughs.) a good club sandwich with a coke. that's my pleasure. it's true. with ice cream. that's true. actually, i think i have real difficulty in experiencing pleasure. i think that pleasure is a very difficult behaviour. it's not as simple as that (laughs) to enjoy one's self. and - i must say that's my dream - i would like and i hope i'll die of an overdose (laughs) of pleasure of any kind. because i think it's really difficult and i always have the feeling that i do not feel the pleasure, the complete and total pleasure and, for me, it's related to death.

(why would you say that?)

because i think that the kind of pleasure that i would consider as the real pleasure would be so deep, so intense, so overwhelming that i couldn't survive it. i would die. i'll give you a clearer and simpler example. once i was struck by a car in the street. i was walking. and for maybe two seconds i had the impression that i was dying and it was really a very, very intense pleasure. the weather was wonderful. it was 7 o'clock on a summer day. the sun was coming down. the sky was very wonderful and blue and so on. it was, it still is now, one of my best memories. (laughs.) ...a pleasure must be something incredibly intense. but i think i am not the only one like that."

happy birthday, michel.

(xoxo, and thanks again for everything.)